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Parsing providence vs. believing promises

There are some pretty bad ideas about God out there. An obvious one is "God" as the indulgent Santa Claus who will give us whatever we want as long as our faith is strong enough. But as we humans are wont to do, it is possible to swing to an opposite but equally wrong extreme - "God" who only deals with his children by withholding. So on the one hand you have indulgence and on the other hand you have deprivation. Neither is correct, and as my pastor pointed out, both of these "gods" are passable. Their moods and dispositions toward us are changeable depending on what we do. Do right = we get what we want. Do wrong or not do enough = retribution, displeasure, and suffering. Two possible and opposite outcomes, but essentially the same root. "Do this and live" AKA the covenant of works. My natural bent is toward the deprivation side which is probably a combination of having weak theology most of my life and personal temperament. But circumstances ...

Change

The pace of life in general will be picking up for me. I have been working part-time from home as a medical transcriptionist for the past two and a half years. I have recently enrolled in an online self paced course in the same field. Many transcriptionists work from home via the Internet, so my hope is to transition to full time work in this profession. This will enable me to continue homeschooling as well. It's a completely different discipline from what I had done prior to being a mom. I had been working as a database administrator, but my skills are 14 years old and more or less obsolete. Part of me is afraid that I won't be able to balance work, homeschooling, and this course which requires 20-25 hours per week. Part of me is wondering what will happen when the six month course is up, and if I will be able to find a job from home where I can continue to homeschool. I also don't like change unless I am the one initiating it. I'm not looking forward to having less fr...