It's hard to believe that it has been ten years. Ten years since his car pulled out of the driveway Ten years since he moved out of the house. Happy Valentine's Day! But not for me.
At the time, I didn't know how I would survive emotionally, financially, and spiritually. I didn't know how I would recover from the betrayal and the pain. How could I possibly go on, let alone be there for our child? Looking back, it was only the grace of God that enabled me to get up each morning, not knowing what the future would bring, and stumble through the daily routine, even though the thought of living seemed to mock me. It was His grace that carried me through the added hell of complicated legal proceedings that only compounded the emotional devastation. Yet, here I am today a decade later and I'm still alive, probably living more freely than I ever have before.
- Ten years ago, I was living in fear. Now I am at peace.
- I was bound. Now I am free. For anyone hyperventilating about this, the events that ultimately led to the divorce unfolded because of God's providence. The degree of my deliverance didn't dawn on me until years later. Take your objections up with Him because He took it out of my hands.
- I had little, if any, sound theologically foundation. Now I can rest in the gospel and God's covenant promises. Blessed assurance, indeed!
- I was isolated with few Christians to support me. I now have a faith family that has been there through thick and thin, at every court date, and in word and deed.
- I was constantly walking on eggshells. My identity was wrapped up in being somebody's wife. Now I am probably more myself than I have ever been. My worth isn't determined by a ring on the 4th finger of my left hand but in the fact that Christ died for me and God created me in His image. My situation may be different, but my personhood is not diminished.
- I honestly wondered if I would ever laugh again. God has even given me my sense of humor back, and His joy has been my strength.
It's easy to get the idea that we can determine the outcome of our lives by our choices. For Christians, just be "good," do all the "right" things, and God will reward us with an earthly happily-ever-after. But in my opinion, that's more in keeping with the prosperity gospel. Unless of course you want to tell me that I didn't do enough or was lacking in faith. I'm not buying that because God is in the heavens. He does what He pleases, and His providence is His call. (Ps. 115:3) Besides Romans 8:28 holds true for all believers at all times in all circumstances including mine.
He has led me. He has kept me, and He deserves my praise.
At the time, I didn't know how I would survive emotionally, financially, and spiritually. I didn't know how I would recover from the betrayal and the pain. How could I possibly go on, let alone be there for our child? Looking back, it was only the grace of God that enabled me to get up each morning, not knowing what the future would bring, and stumble through the daily routine, even though the thought of living seemed to mock me. It was His grace that carried me through the added hell of complicated legal proceedings that only compounded the emotional devastation. Yet, here I am today a decade later and I'm still alive, probably living more freely than I ever have before.
- Ten years ago, I was living in fear. Now I am at peace.
- I was bound. Now I am free. For anyone hyperventilating about this, the events that ultimately led to the divorce unfolded because of God's providence. The degree of my deliverance didn't dawn on me until years later. Take your objections up with Him because He took it out of my hands.
- I had little, if any, sound theologically foundation. Now I can rest in the gospel and God's covenant promises. Blessed assurance, indeed!
- I was isolated with few Christians to support me. I now have a faith family that has been there through thick and thin, at every court date, and in word and deed.
- I was constantly walking on eggshells. My identity was wrapped up in being somebody's wife. Now I am probably more myself than I have ever been. My worth isn't determined by a ring on the 4th finger of my left hand but in the fact that Christ died for me and God created me in His image. My situation may be different, but my personhood is not diminished.
- I honestly wondered if I would ever laugh again. God has even given me my sense of humor back, and His joy has been my strength.
It's easy to get the idea that we can determine the outcome of our lives by our choices. For Christians, just be "good," do all the "right" things, and God will reward us with an earthly happily-ever-after. But in my opinion, that's more in keeping with the prosperity gospel. Unless of course you want to tell me that I didn't do enough or was lacking in faith. I'm not buying that because God is in the heavens. He does what He pleases, and His providence is His call. (Ps. 115:3) Besides Romans 8:28 holds true for all believers at all times in all circumstances including mine.
He has led me. He has kept me, and He deserves my praise.
How blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, Whose hope is in the Lord his God, Who made heaven and earth, The sea and all that is in them; Who keeps faith forever; Who executes justice for the oppressed; Who gives food to the hungry. The Lord sets the prisoners free. The Lord opens the eyes of the blind; The Lord raises up those who are bowed down; The Lord loves the righteous; The Lord protects the strangers; He supports the fatherless and the widow, But He thwarts the way of the wicked. The Lord will reign forever, Your God, O Zion, to all generations. Praise the Lord!
Psalm 146:5-10 (NASB)
(((HUGS))) Much love to you, Persis.
ReplyDeleteLove you too, Jessica.
DeletePraise God!
ReplyDeleteAmen!
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